Sunday, November 23, 2008

Vigilant(e)

I hadn't been to mass for a while so I was so happy and relieved to go today. The gospel went something like this:

On the last day, Jesus will say to those on His right hand, "Come, enter the Kingdom. For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was sick and you visited me." Then Jesus will turn to those on His left hand and say, "Depart from me because I was hungry and you did not feed me, I was thirsty and you did not give me to drink, I was sick and you did not visit me." These will ask Him, "When did we see You hungry, or thirsty or sick and did not come to Your help?" And Jesus will answer them, "Whatever you neglected to do unto one of these least of these, you neglected to do unto Me!"

I liked to think that God was within everyone and being kind to everyone was a good thing. The priest then asked us how many of us would help someone who has fallen down on the street. He said sometimes we are not observant enough. And if we noticed such things, were we going to do anything about them? For doing nothing to allow sin was just as bad. He mentioned the movie, "The Accused" which I now would like to see. It is supposedly about how people in a crowded bar refuse to step forward as witnesses to a rape. He mentioned how an old travelling couple called the cops about a bar fight because the locals didn't even lift a finger about it. The cops arrived just to tell them, "Oh it's private."

He said we have a Don't-Get-Involved attitude. So if someone came up to us in need of any kind, we shun them immediately. But we can all help even in the smallest ways, like just simply being a listener. And sometimes, those in need do not announce it. And that's where we need to be observant enough, or simple, caring enough.

I was just thinking of how I'd like to be a vigilante. I guess being vigilant is a good start.

I would help someone up if he or she fell down in the street. I have often shared my umbrella with some strangers and it was sweet how a woman once shared hers with me! We even had a very nice conversation about theatre. Now that brings me to another thing: Karma.

I do believe karma does exist but it is not crucial to my existence. If I had kids, I would tell them to do what is right simply because it is. Don't do something to receive good karma, to gain graces or points or to get into heaven. Because that becomes selfish and you end up thinking ultimately about yourself. "What do I get in return? I want to have good Karma. I want to go to Heaven. I deserve to." How can one say that? How can one judge that in his or her own favour? Doesn't that seem the least bit arrogant, self-righteous or greedy? Can't we just do what's good simply because it is the right thing to do? And if we lose out or get taken advantage of and never get anything in return, didn't we still do the right thing?

It's ok. I'm often a horrid judge of anything (especially character; just believe in the best), so I'll just still do what I sincerely feel is right. I only hope my empathy is abundant, and my conscience is reliable. Oh and I must be vigilant. :-)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

The Definition of Catholic

While at work yesterday, I revealed to a colleague that I was learning numerology. She asked if I was christian, and my answer was "I'm Catholic." which prompted her to ask if it was appropriate for me to practise numerology. I then shared with her my concept of Heaven and religion. Before my dad passed, he asked the priest, "So many people believe that they are going to heaven and the rest are not. So who's going and who's not?" The priest replied, "Everyone is going to the same destination but we have different maps." That illustrated what I felt best.

She was a little apalled, saying those who aren't Christians will not go to Heaven. She didn't say the word "hell"; perhaps it makes her uncomfortable. I just said no one can judge and no one really knows. No one except God, I thought. So I explained that I'd just do what feels true and right to me and not worry about whether it will bring me any glory or reward. I deeply believe that God, the creator, or whomever you might refer to him or her as, would recognise true sincerity and kindness. A person's religion doesn't matter to me, but his or her all-emcompassing love, kindness and humbleness do. In fact, my favourite quotes from the bible (not that I am an avid bible reader) are all about love and kindness:

John 3:10 - Anyone who does not do what is right or does not love his brother is not God's child.
John 3:16 - We too, then, ought to give our lives for our brothers!
John 3:17 - If a rich person sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against his brother, how can he claim that he loves God?
John 3:18 - My children, our love should not be just words and talk; it must be true love, which shows itself in action.
John 4:20 - If someone says he loves God, but hates his brother, he is a liar.

Isn't God, love and understanding for everyone? I think she might think I sound a little too liberal as a catholic. After all, here's what the dictionary says:

cath⋅o⋅lic
1. broad or wide-ranging in tastes, interests, or the like; having sympathies with all; broad-minded; liberal.
2. universal in extent; involving all; of interest to all.
3. pertaining to the whole Christian body or church.

The definitions also included:
- Including or concerning all humankind; universal: "what was of catholic rather than national interest" (J.A. Froude).
- Free from provincial prejudices or attachments.
- Not narrow-minded, partial, or bigoted; liberal.

I hope I am not wrong, becuase it feels right within my soul, my conscience. Guardian angel, what do you think?